Do you ever feel sick of having to explain yourself? Someone’s always got to ask why. Why can’t you go? Why can’t you afford it? Or “I just don’t understand…” and starts to add their own version of things up. The end of today has been one of those days where I just feel so fed up. Everyone sees a smiley face. Sometimes I feel like no one understands me. There’s so many questions coming my way that bug the life out of me. So here’s some for you.
It’s your life and you have the right to make your decisions
Have you ever wondered why I make these decisions? Sometimes I just don’t want to. That doesn’t make me boring. And it doesn’t need to be questioned. People know how badly I want to move out. It’s not because I hate my home. It’s because I want a life that can be for me and Danny. Sure, we have one together now but it’s nowhere near as amazing as it could be.
Having each other is amazing. But we wish for so much more. More but by the small things. It’s beginning to feel like it’s going to take forever. We just have to believe. It will happen and we have to work towards making it happen as best as we can. If that means saying no to things here and there then so be it. Stop asking why or saying I don’t understand why you can’t just… It’s driving me insane.
You don’t have to justify everything just because someone’s curious
I wish people could leave us to it. Don’t question every decision I/we make. Stop making it your business to find out what I’m spending my money on. What does it really matter to you? Notice how you keep telling me your business. But I never ask because I honestly don’t make it my concern. I’m sick of having other peoples’ problems on my mind. Hearing stories I don’t need to here frustrates me. Especially when I’ve said before that I’m not interested.
Okay, well, that rant is over. I hope there’s at least one person who reads this that can get where I’m coming from. Even if it’s just a little bit, it would be nice to hear that it’s a relatable situation (not that you’re going through it).
I just feel so fed up recently even though I have good things happening around me. I have a roof over my head. I’m not starved; nor am I unwell. The doctor does want me to relax as my blood pressure has been high again. But as many of you will be aware, that’s exactly why I’m writing this post. Blogging is my therapeutic calming cure. It releases all of my thoughts and hey, it produces a new blog post for you all to read.
Wanting time alone or not putting everything in the open is allowed
It bugs me when someone judges or questions you just because you’re not doing what they would want to do. You hear so many people say, well if I was you or, I’ve never known you to like/not like…
Well guess what, I’m me! Thanks for telling me your thoughts but I think I do a better job of being myself than anybody else. If you can’t accept that I don’t/do want to do something, that’s your problem. Please don’t expressing your confusion or criticism with me.
What I’m trying to tell you when times get like this is, breathe, keep your head up and do your own thing. It’s so important to do your own thing. Of all the people in the world, there has to be some of us that believe in our own things. The type of people that want to do something for themselves, as selfish as it may seem to others, is something I totally get. If you don’t then that’s fair enough.
Here’s to a relaxing weekend and focusing on a happy future.