This morning I woke up and felt ready to take on a Sunday morning run around my local park. The only thing was, when I began to run, I started to have a lot of self-doubt. I kept telling myself and my boyfriend that I can’t do it and I’m not going to be able to do the Great Manchester Run in May.
Sometimes, we tell ourselves that we can’t do something before we’ve even tried harder to accomplish something new. Doing something you’ve never done before can be nerve-wracking, or scary but think about the feeling you’ll get at the end of it – that’s what I keep telling myself.
I think I’ve felt pressured that I’ve got to finish the run within a certain amount of time, and I’ve been worried about stopping and starting throughout the duration of the running course. But the thing is, if I complete it, then I’ll have done it. Whether I run, walk, or crawl, I will make the finish line.
I just need to believe in myself that I can do it. I even downloaded an app today to count steps and calories on my phone. I amazed myself with how many steps I had done. And to end the day, I’ve done 15, 258 steps today. Not bad for a Sunday eh?!
Something I do need to find, it what works as a good energy booster for me. There are times where I’m at the gym, I feel motivated, I feel ready, but then suddenly I hit a low point where I stop and feel as if I am going to flop to the ground.
Whereas, I know that I am capable of going the extra distance on the treadmill, picking up a weight slightly heavier, maintaining more resistance training and stretching just that little bit further. These are the things I need to do in order to be the strongest that I can be.
If my mental capacity lets me down then I won’t be able to go anywhere. But hopefully, training will continue and work well. I don’t know what I would do without my boyfriend, Daniel being there to support me along the way. I think he’s the perfect running partner for me.
He pushes me further and tells me that I can do I just have to pace myself and work up gradually. And that is exactly what I am going to aim for. I definitely feel a lot happier the more active I’ve become recently for my own health and wellbeing.
Today we ran through rain, wind and mud today. We are ready for more challenges that we will face along the way.