Who knows where this chapter will take me? It might not have technically started just yet, but for me it’s already begun because I am ready for something new to take me where I need to go.
I want to thank all of the lovely people I’ve met who helped to put a spring in my step each day. But sometimes, you know when it’s time for something new and something bigger. It’s so important to know your worth and to not let anyone or anything hold you back.
This evening, I’ve received messages from three people. One didn’t realise I had already left and say they were gutted they didn’t get to wish me luck in person and said ‘You’re excellent. Keep at it.’ One asked how my day had been. And the other said they had missed me today and you’re such a beautiful writer, keep going.’
It’s so lovely when your work is noticed and people take the time to comment. It really is the little things that make me smile each day. This evening, I hit a bit of a low point until I was reminded that I’ll be okay and be in the perfect place for me and my future.
Just as my friend words it, I’m a happy person, and being happy is one of the things I enjoy most in this world. It keeps me on track, it keeps me focused, and most of all, it makes me look towards the future instead of dwelling on the doubts and what ifs.
A challenge is necessary, but when you’re losing yourself, it’s unnecessary.
Yesterday, saying goodbye was a lot harder than I thought it was going to be. Some people even surprised me and how much potential they recognised in me and the care they had in my abilities. One lady in particular I visited upstairs and she gave me a hug and I looked at her and nearly cried so I had to get away because I did get tearful.
Some of the messages that are on my cards are written below (I’ll be honest, I’m trying not to well up as I am writing these).
You will be missed and this is from my heart. You have been brilliant and it was lovely working with you. Stay in touch. Lots of love.
It’s been lovely having you as a colleague. Sorry you are leaving. Good luck in whatever you do and keep in touch.
Sorry you are leaving. All the very best.
You will be great in whatever adventure you embark on.
You’re fab at your job and are a lovely person. Good luck on the next part of your career.
There were people in the office who always complimented me whether it was something I was wearing or a piece of work they had noticed. But what I loved the most was being able to have a laugh with them. One of them even referred to me as my auntie in the workplace. It wasn’t always easy to be able to have chats and get to know everyone but I’m so glad for the chances that I did have.
And it’s not completely goodbye for the ones who would like to celebrate with me next weekend!
There’s been another woman who I cannot thank enough. From day one entering her work area, she has helped me. No matter what it’s been, she took the time to give me a hand, especially when she seen that I had become less confident. I think if it wasn’t for her, I would have lost confidence in myself completely.
I was reminded how important it is to be me and not how others want me to be. We were always on the same level. And she would always check to see how I was getting on. Whenever I was asked to have something done urgently she would make sure she tried her best to help me.
I think her wise words and constant support pushed me to believe that I can do it!
One member in the same team became my friend. People asked if we were sisters or related. I was called by her name and she was called by mine. Staff would come up to one of us in the staff room and think we were the other people, not realising in the slightest, and carrying on a conversation they actually thought they were having with the other person.
One day, I went up to Finance, and as much as it could stressful, the lady there always reminded never to let it take its toll on you. So I listened to her and from that day we got on ever so well. She took to my personality and we understood each other. One day she even said, “Wow. Someone just said she’s been up here already like a few seconds ago.” turns out it wasn’t this blonde they thought they had seen again!
My twin had seen me cry, laugh, stress, and in complete silence. In just six months she really appreciated me and we always got on. From my very first day sat in reception waiting to be seen to she came over to me and asked if everything was okay and said ‘Is it Natasha?’
When I had completed my first week, she bought be a Freddo and handed it over to me with a ‘Well done on completing your first week’ message on a sticky note. It was the sweetest moments like those that never failed to bring a smile to my face.
We even shared a near death experience in her car – don’t worry no one was hurt!
Stay positive. Work hard. Make it happen.
She couldn’t have chosen a more accurate quote on a candle could she?! I really do believe that if you believe in yourself, you can make it happen. Here’s how she described me in her own words…
I never want to lose contact. To all of you who got to know me more – thank you for everything.
I wish all the happiness for those who have supported me and you’ll be people who I’ll remember forever.
Time teaches us everything. One thing I’ve definitely learnt from this is that, you are strong enough.